since

it is too long since i've had the need to be still and silent
even in sleep my fingers dance as though on the keys
the keyboard under my sleep fingers
sending messages that i can't read

it's too long since i've had the need to sit and wait
if i wait it is only for me
and i am standing standing standing
walking pouncing
tearing up the carpet under my feet
as i walk in circles

it's too long since i've had the need to be alone
alone with only these breaths and this swallowing
only this here me
if i close my eyes there is nothing to look at

it's too long since
it's been too long since
i've walked without a map
i've talked without a map